You have a choice to receive the gift of humility and being, or not.
You can surrender to being and connect more deeply to your inner consciousness. Or, strengthen the ego by covering up the pain and thinking how wronged you were or how “that” shouldn’t have happened.
The truth is … whatever “it” was did happen. And so the opportunity to sit with the loss is there. By being present with the loss, we give loving compassion to ourselves and fill that painful place. While others can give us compassion, no one can fill that empty place. Only through our conscious connection to God can it ever be filled.
Stuff, people, substances may temporarily give the illusion of filling the empty space, but it will be temporary. Only the connection to the consciousness of God is consistent even when my connection feels “lost” at times.
I realize now that when my cat Trax died, he was temporarily filling up a giant wound inside of me. When he died, that wound opened up grief and loss that had been lingering but never fully revealed to me.
It was the loss of identity, of not doing, of what I have or haven’t done with my life. That is the ego. What the loss of Trax gave me was much greater.
I had the opportunity to make a choice, to sit with the loss and fill it up through meditation and compassion by feeling and accepting the pain. This is humility – the loss of my identities, the loss of doing and the gift of being.
It’s not easy but it’s the greatest gift Life has ever given me. I know how to BE, sit with pain, and fill it up with loving compassion. This is really all I believe that we all want, to experience the feeling of love from within. No one, no thing, can take that away from you.
As I do this, the external aspects of my life naturally improve. But I know it’s temporary, and I continue to surrender to what the universe has in store for me.
Thank you for the gift of humility and being.